Things I’d Like to Tell Myself Before I Turn 30

Life is a long journey that will continue until our time in this world is up. I never imagined that life could be so complicated. When I was a child, I thought I could do whatever I wanted with my life. I have control over what happens in my life, I can pursue whatever I want, and I can receive love from everyone around me. Everyone, in my opinion, is a good person. Nobody can ever hurt me, and they will always be there for me. I used to believe that life was all about goodness, and that if I could just be a nice girl, I could get whatever I wanted. I reasoned that whatever I want in this life will be mine as long as I work hard for it. As time passes, I realize that life is not that simple. The reality hit me so hard that I felt lost and unable to trust anyone, including myself. I’m falling apart and don’t know how to get back on track. Then I realize that life isn’t all about me. Life is about balancing positive and negative emotions, hope and disappointment, honesty and deception, and so on. Life is all about learning. Accepting our mistakes, our weaknesses, our stupidity, and life teaches us to appreciate everything we have and to love ourselves no matter what. I’ve done stupid and selfish things in my life, and I realize I’m just a normal person with a lot of issues to work out. I can’t always be the person who is always cheerful, kind, and nice, but I also feel sad, regret, despair, and loss. I wrote this post specifically for myself before turning 30, and I hope that if you feel the same way as I do, this post will help you feel better.

I thank you for persevering this far, however you are now

I understand that going through various things until today has been difficult. I see when you have to hold on when you can’t anymore. The tears you hide when you’re alone, the smile you always put on so that those around you don’t worry about you. It’s difficult to make peace with yourself when people underestimate you and insult you in front of a large group of people. You lose yourself but do not surrender. Instead of dropping you, I should be thanking you more. Thank you for sticking with me this far. You are a courageous person, and I am grateful for your presence in this world.

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Don’t be bored with the process even if the desired results have yet to be seen

Don’t be bored with the process even if the desired results have yet to be seen.  Please, however, wait a little longer. We try once more to realize your childhood dream, which you have never realized but which always knocks on the door of your heart whenever you are alone and lost your way. It reminds you of how enthusiastic you used to be. Let us try again, this time with seriousness. Don’t get discouraged if you don’t see results right away because we need to fix what’s broken. The process is lengthy, but please do not become bored this time. Please persevere until the end. I believe that someday this will be where you live, so enjoy the journey. Be patient as we attempt this together.

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You don’t stop trying in your life because you get older; there’s always a chance to start no matter how old you are

You are constantly concerned about growing older. There is no issue with age. It’s never too late to start, no matter how old you are. Remember that everyone has their own timeline, and there’s no need to be worried if you’re just getting started. We are not competing with others, but with ourselves to be better than we were before. God isn’t going to sit back and watch you try. He will assist us as long as we have good intentions. So, look for new opportunities as long as they help you improve. Add new skills, don’t be afraid to study with younger ones, and enjoy the learning process. We gradually rearrange our ideal life. Trust me, you won’t be disappointed. We should not stop learning as we get older; instead, we should become more mature in dealing with life’s challenges.

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Preserve strong principles and resist being swayed by others

Who is it that lives your life? you personally. So, develop strong principles. Don’t be swayed easily. Whatever your guiding principle is, follow it. You don’t have to be concerned about people talking incessantly. Because you live your own life, all considerations are within your grasp. Whatever it is, you must begin with principles. Stop being a pleasant person; you try not to hurt other people but repeatedly hurt yourself. It is natural to refuse if you do not wish to; you are not required to do everything. Choose the things that are important to you in life. You must have strong principles and stay focused on your life goals from now on.

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Forgive the past, live in the present, and don’t worry about the future

Perhaps you are still hurt by people who accidentally hurt you in the past, actions that caused you pain and sadness, so that when you remember it today, the pain is the same as it was before. You know, those people have forgotten everything, they live normal lives, but you are still sick alone. So, practice forgiving. Take it as a lesson that doing such things to other people is wrong. You’re disappointed, angry, sad, and stuck in the past, while they’re chasing their dreams. You don’t want to be defeated twice, do you? So live your life and forgive those who have wronged you. They didn’t know how to communicate in good sentences at the time. You are valuable, regardless of what they say. You are a good person, so there is nothing wrong with you. So, try to forgive them and move on with your life. And remember, you don’t need to be concerned about the future. What matters is that you live your best life today. This is enough to.

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I admit that this writing is very emotional for me because I have to recall past events that still leave me with the same emotion. To be honest, I’m not completely free of the past. But I do my best to live my life now and forgive the past. Maybe I need more time to completely heal, because it’s natural for a long-stored hurt feeling to take a long time to heal. But I’m grateful that I’m still living my life to the best of my ability. I realized that there is no such thing as a life that is truly in accordance with what we expect. However, while we may strive to live the best life possible for ourselves, we must allow God to make the final decision because God’s plan is the best.

To be honest, I can’t afford to keep writing. Maybe I’ll add things I want to tell myself later, before I turn 30. There are still many things I want to say, but I can only write until here.

The final post in the BPN Ramadan 2022 challenge is a special post for me so that I can keep writing forever. I am very proud of myself for completing this challenge and bringing back my blog. So after that, I plan to continue learning about writing, blogging, improving my English skills, and, of course, loving myself by enhancing what God has given me.

Hopefully, my final piece for this challenge will be beneficial to you. Remember, we’re all great no matter what, and thank you for being a part of this wonderful world.



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